Goodbye My Little First Born Shih Tzu

Oh what a pain to experience loss and goodbyes.
Even for a little puppy.
It's been two days since she was sold and I am so attached to her.
I can't help but feel sad and until now I can't stop from crying.
I look like a fool crying over a puppy.
Well the last time I cried was when the other puppy has eye infection.
That was last Thursday, a week ago.
I also cried silently when I gave this little puppy away.
Now, I thought of getting her back and keeping them all to myself.
But I am pregnant and will be having a baby soon.
Of course, I can't take it back.
I have to deal with the pain.
huhuhuhuhuhu...

Sibling Rivalry

Pet Grooming Review: Pet Span, K-9 Couture and Heavenly Blue

K-9 Couture
I have a Shih Tzu named Cassie and we often would bring her to K-9 Couture for grooming, sometimes if it full and they cannot accommodate her anymore so we would try the other grooming shop. K-9 Couture offers the cheapest grooming service before. We only pay for 300 pesos for Cassie's full grooming. They increased their price to 450 and everybody else's price was 500 but it did not include styling and dematting so it is a little expensive it would cost around 800 for Cassie. That is a cost for a very large dog and Cassie is a princess-type Shih Tzu.
The grooming person is efficient and Cassie always turned out adorable after every grooming.



Pet Span Grooming Shop
So We tried Pet Span, they had a discount of 50 pesos from 550 so you only pay 500 including toothbrushing service for the dogs. They had a very good service. They expanded to another section so they have two shops. We tried the new one because the old was fully booked. It was a clean cut for Cassie but after a few days we've seen a razor cut in her belly. She was itchy for days. The next time we brought her there she had an ear infection that also becomes an eye infection. Her ears were dry after the grooming but when we arrived home, her ears were watery so she developed an otitis media. She was sick for several days we have to give her an antibiotic, an ear drop and an eye drop. I tried calling the Manager informing him of the condition but he just ignored my call. We never go there again.
Heavenly Blue Pet Shop

When the vet discovered the razor cut from Cassie and inquired where we had her groomed, he recommended the Heavenly Blue Shop. So after Cassie gave birth, we brought her there to have a hair cut. We do not like it, she look so poor and thin coupled with sagging breast. She doesn't look cute at all. The cut was not even, I even complained to the person who groomed Cassie. We are not satisfied with the 500 pesos that we paid them. Cassie looked better when we had her groomed at Pet Span. Well, we will try other shop then or maybe Irwin will just groom Cassie himself.

Shih Tzu Cassie Gave Birth to Four Puppies

Can't update my blog, have to be a midwife for a while assisting my pet giving birth to her new puppies yesterday at 5:30 am. We had her x-rayed at Animal Care Specialist to count the number of puppies that she has. From the x-ray it showed that she will have 5 puppies but the x-ray beam was not very clear because she was pregnant and they adjusted the rays. That was aroung 8:30 pm of December 30. The vet told us that she is ready to give birth anytime because one puppy was already in position in her cervix. We saw the xray. We went to our parents house to get a supply of newspaper and cardboard boxes. Irwin prepared the boxes for Cassie that night and Cassie was alredy looking for a place to give birth. She is almost ready, we hoped that she will not give birth that night, fortunately, she give birth the next morning. Irwin saw her edging herself at a corner already panting and having contractions.
WE placed her in the box and after a few minute with lights still out, she give birth to her first born. It was a female and it was very big and strong. I was excited seeing the new puppy, Irwin tied the umbilical cord with dental floss and tried to stimulate the puppy by rubbing it or letting Cassie wipe out the placenta and other stuff. The next baby came out after 7 minutes and the next two at an interval of 30 minutes. It was finished after an hour. we were very happy and tired and proud for our newest member of family. Thank God Cassie survived her first birthing, we really pray that Cassie will have enough milk to feed her babies.

Having a Baby and Losing It

It's been six weeks since I had a D & C, they keep on saying this without telling me what it is. So I checked the internet and found out that D and C refers to dilatation and curettage. "It is a procedure in which the vaginal canal is held open with a speculum and the cervix is dilated with a metal rod. A curette is then passed through the cervical canal into the uterine cavity where endometrial tissue is scraped away and collected for examination."

I was so innocent with what happened to me, I didn't remember that a speculum was inside me, I thought it was just a bad dream. I never imagine it could fit inside, I also could not imagine the OB's hand fitting inside my vagina, hmm of course how can the baby get out?

Now after six weeks of resting ang recovering I am starting over. Trying to forget that I lost my baby. But I was not completely well I guess. Recently, I watched "Paano Kita Iibigin" and I was crying and affected by the movie when I saw a mother taking care of a sick child. Will I ever be a mother again?

Now, I am focused on parenting our Shih Tzu dog, Cassie and I am trying hard to be a good pet owner to her. I realized that if "you give a little love, it all comes back to you". This quote is for everybody including animals, after bonding with Cassie and making her sleep, she is starting to cuddle me and stay beside my side of bed. Cassie likes Irwin more because he plays with Cassie so they sleep together but not with me. I am surprised when Cassie for the longest time finally sleep beside me.

I am confident that I am going to be a good mother.